If you could turn back time.....

[laine175]

I know how you feel in the last 2 years I lost my dad and my brother, my brother was living in Malta and I hadn't seen/spoke to him for a year. Sorry for your loss HC but happy that everyone else now gets lots of hugs

[4020]

Houston I am sorry you had to live through that. That is a loss you can never fully get over. It amounts to a new normal, well when acceptance part of grief comes.

The other event that shaped me was the loss of an officer and friend. I was dispatching when that call came in. The worst part I felt guilty even though I didn't send him to the call and by the time the call for help came to me he was already gone. His wife called my cell phone wanting to know what was going on... That was news I never wanted to deliver let alone on a cell phone.

I had nightmares about that call and felt guilty until someone asked what could I have done differently... The realization came that couldn't have changed the outcome, and in fact was able to keep anyone else from being hurt or killed.